Feeling the Effects of the High

There's a Mexican rock song from Caifanes called Aqui No Es Asi that has a line that translates roughly as, "You come from there and you don't know your destiny ... Invoking forces that you'll never understand."
It's been several weeks since the shoot. No accidents. Not the name of the film. Not the subject matter that poured from my sub-conscious. Whenever I heard that song, and I heard it a lot while living in Mexico, I interpreted it as an admonition to the gringos that came and mucked about without really knowing what they were doing. Or of the white folk that involve themselves in Native American spiritual rituals.
I feel like I messed with something I knew nothing about and am now faced with finding out how to deal with what has surfaced.

I am afraid to see what ends up on screen.
I am afraid to see what my life will look like.

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